"But his wife looked back behind him, and she became a pillar of salt." (Genesis 19:26)
Lot and his wife and daughters were escaping from their city of Sodom, having been warned by angels that Sodom was to be destroyed. One of the angels had urged Lot: “Escape for your life! Do not look behind you nor stay anywhere in the plain. Escape to the mountains, lest you be destroyed.” (Genesis 19:15)
Lot pleaded with the angels that he was afraid of the mountains and felt better about escaping to a nearby city, Zoar. One of the angels agreed to the compromise, and Lot's family was in the process of escaping to Zoar when his wife looked back.
All Bible stories have a metaphorical meaning in addition to any literal meaning. "Escape to the mountains, lest you be destroyed," means angels are telling us: "Escape to an ever higher experience of God, because staying in ego will destroy you."
In his modern day revelation, A Course in Miracles, Jesus describes our Lot-reminiscent fear of the spiritual mountain experience: "This is the secret bargain, made with the ego, to keep what lies beyond the veil forever blotted out and unremembered. Here is your promise never to allow union to call you out of separation; the great amnesia in which the memory of God seems quite forgotten; the cleavage of your Self from you; the fear of God, the final step in your dissociation."
Totally losing self-identification as a separate body, and experiencing oneself as one with God .... totally scary, right?
So, like Lot, we strive for a compromise. If we are too afraid to escape all the way up the mountain, but we've been warned that staying in ego will destroy us, maybe we are willing to escape to a middle ground place. The ego wants to think of itself as supremely important. Maybe an acceptable trade-off is to escape into ego-insignificance. Lot escaped to Zoar. The meaning of "Zoar" in ancient Hebrew is "insignificant."
Angels, knowing of our fear of the mountain heights, agree to the compromise and urge us (every moment) to quickly escape to ego-insignificance. To aid in forming a habit, maybe we hear inside the voice of angels encouraging us to render the ego insignificant by saying a million times over until it becomes thoroughly true and second nature, "I live for no other reason than to serve the light."
When we truly live for no other reason than to serve the light, miracles happen constantly in our wake. People feel strangely healed or uplifted when they see us or think about us. The world rearranges itself seemingly magically. Our experience of love and joy explodes. We find ourselves having all sorts of out-of-this-world experiences.
But what happens if we turn around and look back? What happens if we take our eyes off the goal? What if instead of focusing on moving forward we stop, look back, and try to bring others along?
Groan! Creak! Ummph! In looking back we are treating illusions as reality. Each time we look back we become crystallized, solid again in the illusion ... until we ultimately again move forward. In A Course in Miracles Jesus describes the journey for some: "Perhaps they still look back, and think they see an idol that they want. Yet has their path been surely set away from idols toward reality."
So for some, escaping ego-provoked destruction might be a process slowed by glances back and crystallization, time and time again being temporarily stuck in place. Yet somewhere deep inside we know that for as long as time seems real delay is tragic. So we finally determine to keep moving forward without looking back. Does that mean not caring about others, not wanting to bring others along?
Far from it. One great teacher used the analogy that as we continue to keep our eyes on the mountain top and move forward we create a vacuum which sucks everyone along with us. Helpful analogy, but the truth is we all ... are ... literally one. In A Course in Miracles, Jesus tells us when one awakens everyone awakens: relatives, friends, those who were once seen as enemies, even people never met who live across the world or in the distant past. When one is finally healed, all are healed. There is only one. When one goes Home, the whole world goes Home: "How many teachers of God are needed to save the world? The answer to this question is: one. One wholly perfect teacher, whose learning is complete, suffices."
Wouldn't it be something if the one who moves only forward, never ever looking back, is ... you!
Since there is no time and space....
And in your wake everyone who has ever lived is being raised up....
A millionth of a second before you flash out in the final ascension into heaven you hear a beautiful chorus....
"Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!"
And among these sweet-sounding declarations of gratitude you recognize the infinitely appreciative voice of one who you never dreamed would be awakened and transformed and liberated by your never ever looking back....
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